wah.. i saw some habuk in this web page liao. i din realise that i din log in for almost weeks liao. hehe... 

today streamyx server got problem again.. haih..  y dont they learn from their mistake? always allow their server to kena hack or something. lousy la..  no wonder they say tat malaysia made good no quality wan.

well soon i will be busy with my assignment so i think i cant log in as often as i like already.  so if i meet u guys online then we chat, ok?

ops, got to go for dinner ad..

bye..

MAN I HATE HELP INSTITUTE !!  today i went back to coll just to sign up for my tutorial group n guess how long i hav to wait for that stupid tutorial signing up ! 1 bloody hour ! can u belif it, i waited in the room for 1 whole bloody hour just to u sign up for 2 tutorial group.  thank god i got the classes tat i wan, if not, i think they will need to bring in the fire department to put off the fire i was going to start in the room.

tat all for today ! too damn f**king angry to type anymore

it have been ages since i log in. how am i doing? not too good.  after months on deciding whether to leave Help Institute, i end up continuing to study there.  i think i make this decision because of the fees. i dont wan to burden my father more with my higher college fees if i change college. so guess what. Help got another idiot studying there !!

i dont know why i feel so sad these days. maybe because of pre-classes syndrom gua. heard of it b4?  well let me explain. it is a sickness where everytime you guys going to start classes after a long holiday u will get SICK that morning!! not wanting to get up from bed, n etc. maybe i am having that?  think so...

i guess that is all for now.. bye ..

my heart have been broken twice today.  1st time is when Cathy told me tat we cant be a couple this afternoon.. Man.. i was so heart broken.  Cos i really tot tat we can make things happen between us. really do.. but i respect her decision. i always respects other people decision. dunno y? am i like Ting Sim Pun?  emm.. maybe not as extreme as him la. but i do sometimes think i am a bit like him. ladies n gentlemen, i can tell u, sometimes it is very hard to put other people in priority b4 ourself. maybe the time when u make the decision u might think tat ur very 'kuat' but after tat then u will feel very stupid of urself.  

then the 2nd case just happen jsut now. 10 minutes ago. i called Cathy. her voice shock me!  she sound like ... like a very very sick person. i was totally taken back by her voice. she told me tat she hav fever, vomit, n headache. then i ask her whether hav she taken any medication. she said 'NO'. then after tat she just cried. Man... i wish i was beside her now. taking care of her. i really do. my heart just melt after i heard her voice. she sound very very weak. i know tat she hav rejected me but i still care for her.  tell u guys wat, i almost cried just now. ALMOST.. man.. i never felt this bad b4. maybe becos of me, she fell sick.. but i think maybe she push herself too much. working non stop all 7 days a week.  i told her ad tat she should take more care on her health but looks like i am no wan to her, she might just ignored me advises b4 this.  

hav a terrible day today. 1st i cant contact wit some 1 i really care about. 2nd, i almost got involve wit a car accident.  3rd, i went back to college n found out tat my result r not out yet. well maybe the last reason arent tat important.

i try to contacted C using sms at 1st, but no reply so i tried to call her. no wan pick up the phone. fine !  maybe she is busy or too tired ad so when to sleep. then at night, i tried to call her again, this time i tot i finally manage to contact her but to my dissappointment, it was her sis tat pick up the phone. haih.. so i cant contact her today. really miss her a lot

all thanks to a stupid idiot skool gal. i wonder wat is the rush. she DARE to cross a road when there r so many cars on the road. she just walk across the road without caring about the other users of the road. so the car in front of me, put on the emergency brake when he saw tat girl suddenly cross the road. i was quite near to his car so i hav to jam my brakes also. luckily i didnt bang into his car. n luckily no wan was behind me at the time. after tat the stupid gal just walk on n din look back !!

when back to college today. planned to take my results but after i reach there, they dare to tell me my results r not out yet ! so waste my time onli.. haih..

wat a black day i have today..

i think i better go to the temple or church to do some praying..hehe..